Sunday, November 11, 2007

Je je jagi jagate taya maze mhana karunakara…

Kacha sings this song at the end of Marathi Drama Yayati-Devyani…

Sarvatmaka, Sarveshvara, Ganga-dhara, Shiv-sundara….
Je je jagi jagate taya maze mhana Karunakara!!

I heard it for the first time when I was in school. And since then it has allured my mind. The concept is all inclusive. All that is alive… consider it as your own, care for it, look after it, provide and protect! Lord, who himself is ‘all inclusive’, God of all’, ‘powerful enough to hold mighty river Ganga in his hair’ and ‘holy- beautiful’ would definitely possess that inner urge and capability to love all and accept all as his own.

I many times tried applying it to common man; to myself. And found it exceedingly difficult to implement. I mean, I interact and these interactions invariably produce objections- small or big, regarding content or principles. And I find an internal division done subconsciously; the division that suggests my party and ‘opposite’ party. Then I start balancing, judging weights of opinions related to both the parties. This weighing includes the questions like what would my relatives think, what would my role model do, what would I think if I were third person and many other.
This process is really complex and it all happens subconsciously. Again it differs according to type of person- that is, a person with internal focus would think that 'yes, this is right for I find it right.' Person with ‘powerful others’ focus and chance focus would think accordingly. In this chaos, ultimately the wall strengthens. The rejection- in minute or major form shapes up. It might not even be noticeable in trivial issues; but then, it is a REJECTION!!! There is no ‘Unconditional acceptance’!!

I strive for such acceptance from my near and dear people. At the same time, I tend to doubt, question intentions perhaps... I do not trust blindly! But this does not mean that complete trust bridges the gap. I see so many barriers to accept ‘my people’- friends and relatives!! Principles, opinions, logic, habits and many others try to stand in between. I do get along and I may feel that I have accepted them unconditionally. But still the 'question tag' remains. I ask ‘WHY’ to myself, if not to them, for at least one of their actions. But then I manage to love them with all my heart.

But will I be able to do the same when it comes to perfect strangers? The honest answer would be no. When I say I wish to evolve as a better human being, I express this wish. I wish to love every living being, I wish to care for them, try to nurture, nourish them, try to share their tears, try to spread smiles.

I always feel that this does not need educational quality. Neither does it need wealth or security. It is a flow- flow of pure love, outwards. This flow has provision to detect mistakes, punish for those and still ‘love’. Love should be the basic feeling in the world. It’s is such a strength that binds so tightly… But unfortunately it is the last feeling which comes in the mind perhaps. Acceptance can not be without doubts and clarifications.

This makes me value the words and think over those again and again-
‘Je je jagi jagate taya, maze mhana karunakara….’